Whoa! Time really flies...

Somewhat just felt so, time really really flies... the way it is, it's kinda scary. Argh... Still so much to learn...

well, nothing really exciting so far... okay, so the basic modelling and unwrapping done... but I haven't model the weapons for the creature... still kinda alot to do. I still wanna try displacing certain things before going into texturing the creature, sorta like a test. not really familiar with zbrush... so, kinda trying to learn the software. haha... I'm sorta a little old fashion, I guess. I wanna try painting too, as well as drawing... Ahh... haven't draw in quite a while... Still a lot to learn...

Really want a job, but, with my skills, it's just not enough... even if I wanna go for internship, I can't, simply because I don't have a school... So, just gotta learn and practice myself till I'm good enough eh? Yet, it does feels demoralizing when there's not much money left to survive. And, nope, I'm not getting any money from my parents, so I just gotta get better.

Hmm... Sometimes, I just really wondered, about the doing research part. Well, we do need to do research, but I would think that adding imagination and creativity into it will be much more cool! It's like reaching for the sky? If certain things are too logical, then, it'll sorta become more of copying than creativity right? Argh... Whatever!

I think I'm kinda going crazy... Well, when I saw my dad hit my sister because of her misbehaviour, it sorta made me feel that he's kinda childish. Well, she's not really misbehaving, she just said, " I don't like daddy to be fierce...", and out came my dad. Hmm... I guess the saying that "as we grow older, we become more child-like" is sorta true? Nah... Rather, I think, there's a kid in everyone. There always will be. Haha...

Didn't realize my speaker was on so loudly... When I on the music, I sorta had a fright... Guess it really scared me quite a bit. Well, it's sorta weird, the player I use always play much more louder than any other software I'm using. That's why when I switch them, sometimes I forget to turn the volume down. That's what happens...

Well, I guess tomorrow will probably be a break. Haha... and no artworks posted here yet... But, it's nothing much to show anyway...