Tired me that is totally going crazy!

I'm kinda lazy to write... Will add in more details next time...
And I'm finally writing and adding details now.

It's been 2 weeks. Yikes... I still need 2 more weeks of work to get my pay cheque... Darn... I'm so numb now, like a zombie. Well, have been working really long hours and now I'm getting too use to it such that I can't really sleep at night. Just have to force the food down every time I feel tired. And finally, a day off for the past 2 weeks!

Let's start with last week. Sorry, but I just wanna complain and laugh off a bit.

On a Thursday morning (Wed past midnight), met up with a funny and irritating cab driver... Amazingly, he drove at 60km/h in the highway! I really almost die of that trip... I won't might he being slowly if he can just stop nagging. He's really rude.

When he asked, go by which way, normally we would reply, whichever is the fast route. Then, he said," NO! I must think and you must think of a route!" Then we did replied, "Go by PIE highway then exit by Corporation road." Then he shouted,"Here no PIE, only got AYE!"

What's worst is he almost stop in the middle of the road just to 'think'.
That only happens when our male colleague left the cab, in a way that the driver changed his attitude, so the remaining 2 of us had to suffer.

He overshot the turns and had to go round abouts and he don't even believe in us guiding the way back to our house. He even said, "Your own house you also don't know?". It's crazy! He's the one turning rounds and rounds. And I did said, "You can stop at the bus stop right in front." Then he overshot again, "Which bus stop? Here so many bus stops. You never say clearly" I replied, "Never mind, just stop here!" And he didn't! He just say, "No, no, no. Slowly, just tell me where. " It's already pass midnight and people want to rest from work and here you ask me slowly reach home?

And he got really unhappy when I say I'm paying by NETS and not by cash. Even when doing the transaction...
This is what he said, "Wait wait wait! Must do step-by-step, slowly. Press this button, then hit OK."
Then he swipes the card. "You can key-in the PIN now." After a while...
"Approved, wait. Now printing the receipt" He tears out 2 receipt, "Ah... This one you keep, this one my copy."
"Wah! You work so far away! Take cab already 1 hour, I think you take bus need 2 hours!" The last words he spoke before I left the cab... I'm just so pissed to say anything further. I actually only need 1 hour plus to reach my office with public transport. Even if it's 4 locations (with my house being the last stop), the time taken to reach home is only 30 mins or less. Well, here's the proof of the receipt:

I'm so mean, I even took down the cab's number.

And next, yeah... The stupid me that took wrong bus, wore my shirt up side down, doing weird crazy stuff... Probably due to lack of sleep, I was so so so feeling down.

During work on a Sat, I did quite a bad thing. Our company have this outlook messenger where we send messages between our boss and supervisors. So the boss actually group messaged us, which means, we are in a group chat. Once he typed, "I'll assign the tasks later today." I immediately closed the window. I'm too tired and a little unhappy too. Well, there are still a lot of problems with the rendering and stuff like that, so I really kinda got really stressed and I just really need a break.

After that I left work to meet up my friends for a movie. Ended up, I was really late because I took the wrong bus and ended up taking cab... It's really pretty nice to be out with my friends. But I'm just really bad, doing really weird stuff. Like, suddenly I'm gone, suddenly I'm back, showing weird and bad attitude. I guess I'm just too tired that day and I'm really thankful my friends and bear with that.

Right after that, the next day, I wore my shirt up size down... Well, at least that is at home and no one else saw that. But I'm feeling really down that day because it's a Sunday and I had to go back to work still.


Alright, that will be last week. This week, it's basically, I'm just a zombie. In fact, everyone in the company just looks like a zombie... It's just work and work...

Playing cabal occasionally as well. Funny, I noticed a creature in this game world, they actually designed their fingers in such a way that their middle finger is the longest, so in a sense, they'll always be pointing middle finger.

Okay, I'm really looking at quite some options now. Not really clear yet, haven't really sorted things out. Well, did chat around with friends. Feeling down lately, so didn't really know what to do and things like that. But no matter what, I need a new model in Maya, be it study or work, I need a reel.

Loads of things to do. I just have to clean up my hard disks space and manage my stuff. After which I would want to upgrade my computer. Not really sure how to fix it. Was thinking of adding RAMs, my current mother board seems to support up to 4GB of RAMs, it's a pretty old model, so I'm not sure if I should changed the motherboard as well. Then, I need a wider monitor as well... Best would be I buy a new monitor then set up dual monitors.

Alright, after all these things done, I have start on the new model. I guess I'll be doing character. Have no idea how to rig in Maya yet, so no idea how to pose it. Well, I'll just worry about creating the model first, rather, designing first.

Have to do all these really fast. Time pasts so fast! It's almost time for the Overdrive. I've missed 2 times, I don't wanna miss my chances this time. Argh... Hope things will go well. It's already almost half a year... Yikes.

Alright that's my update, I think I need some herbal tea and herbal jelly...

Finally some updates...

Alright, have been off the whole week. Well, last friday(4/4) was my last day though. Ended up, I'll be going back to work at the same company again for alternate weeks. The schedule is, I work 3 weeks first then rest for a week then after that, work on alternate weeks.

I've send resumes everywhere. Sure hope I'll get a reply soon enough. Well, I guess I have to at least wait for a month or something. It's kinda hard without a good reel. So I'll just have to update my reel using those weeks that I'm not working. And yea, including my online portfolio, finally added in last year's stuff. Haven't start on this year though.

Instead of characters, I guess I'll go try out for environment this time, so I guess I'll have to learn some architecture stuff. And, yea, can say I always do those 'emo' drawings... Haha... Still can't really figure out about happy stuff though. Hmm... Maybe I'll try that sometimes cause I think it's gonna be really fresh and good, thanks to Banana for the tip! Hee...

I guess the reason for all those bloody and emo stuff is most likely due to stress? Haha... Ya know, sometimes it's like u've been working or studying for super long hours and things still don't seem to get right, just have the feeling of slashing and violence... Muahaha... That's probably why, it's sorta a way to destress, just like games!

Oh man... talking about games... I think I'm getting more and more addictive to PSP... Argh... Think I wanna buy 1 if I have the money... Thanks to 1 of my colleague who let me play on her PSP, FFVII Crisis Core half way through the story, then Banana who let me play Patapon.... Aiyo... Maybe I should I go get a 2nd-hand PSP at $180... But still prefer brand new though...

Yikes... But before that, I think I better upgrade my computer first. Need a larger monitor, probably gonna make it dual screen if I buy a new monitor. Then, need more horse power. But before all that, I better check if it can support that many RAMs... So, probably after 3 weeks, I'll be digging my storeroom for the manuals... Dun really know how it works though...

Actually, it's kinda a weird feeling to not work after working for long hours almost everyday. It sorta becomes a habit, like sleeping. Hard to get to sleep, and really sleep very little. Hopefully I'll survive and not turn to a zombie.

I did notice that people there really turn to zombies. Well, due to too much work and lack of sleep. For example, right after the female toilet's flush and lock are fixed, most of the female colleagues still used the key to open the already unlocked door, which they didn't even noticed that it's not locked. I guess it's either a habit or they haven't noticed it...

Well, everyone there really have too much work. It's sorta a turning point for the company and the projects kinda got squeezed together. Well, some of the projects are supposed to start much earlier, but because of certain reasons, it got delayed, so end up all the projects are squeezed together. And I guess it's after certain submission then the client will make some payment, so new people will come in slowly. Maybe after a few projects, there should hopefully enough manpower.

The projects are really scarily alot. And sometimes I do feel the tasks are kinda unevenly spread out sometimes. So just hope that things will go well.

Haha... Well, for me, I'll just work alternate weeks, make sure I'm not turning into a zombie, build up my reel, and get a full time job. Hope I will be able to study too if I get enough money.

Sometimes it does feels kinda more and more lonely. It's like alot of friends seems to be overseas studying or working... Ah... Have been sending them off at the airport. I always wondered if it'll be my turn one day... Be it good or bad, it really is good experience to actually go around the world.

Hoho! It's a long entry! Well, I should clean up the table right next to me... Yikes... And hehe... I think I gonna add a wish list. And, I still haven't started playing Cabal. Looks exciting though. I should play more games!!!

Okay, as usual I just random write stuffs that come to my head. Tmr's Lucas Arts talk, I'll get myself motivated and meet up with old friends. Alright, I'll be off to eat my lunch now.


I'll just go wherever the wind blows...

Loads of things to update...

Yup... Loads of things to update... And yea... Finally after 2 years, I'm just gonna use back deviantart. And, so I've updated there...

Okay, added the website on my resume as well... Haven't been sending things out... And, I guess I wanna try Cabal out too!

Haven't even update this blog... Okay soon soon... So the place where I place all my art stuff: http://yuffugin.deviantart.com/ Check out the not that new stuff there!