I'm awake... and they are asleep... (-_-)

Went to the zoo yesterday with my parents. Haven't been into nature for quite sometime, so it's pretty good to relax the eyes... I think the attraction is still doing some upgrade works though, lots of new things since I last went which is 1 year ago or longer? Will probably blog about it another time... Didn't take pictures of alot of animals though...

And good thing about going to the zoo is, finally! My parents saw how bad the camera has gotten to... And Alright! My dad did say he is gonna buy 1 new one. My parents did quarrel a little about new camera being expensive and blah blah blah... Muahaha... In any case, I think they gonna get a new one soon anyway... Most likely it's not for me... (-_-)

After that back at home... There my phone goes again... send out msgs cannot see it get sent and then can't receive msgs and can't call out or call in... Now, that describes the problem - phone's main functions aren't working...

Okay, in the end I did got out... and spent the whole night out and took the first train back this morning... Then slept...

Now I sorta feel like, "Oh great! (roll eyes) I'm awake now and everyone else is sleeping again..." Then again, it actually happens almost everyday. Yep, living pretty unhealthy still. Can't seem to sleep at the right time...

Okay, so just have to change a little bit of lightings for my creature on Tues. Because sorta going down to the studio to get my teacher to teach me how to improve my lighting. I totally suck at lighting... After that, I'll just send out my reels and I can't really remember how to react when interviewed... Haven't do that in a long time. Eh... So just see how it goes eh?

Hmm... I think I need to find some new entertainment or something. But nothing is ever cheap around here. It's sorta like, the things to do is quite limited. Wanna catch movies again and again. I think I'm quite a movie freak... But it ain't cheap to go for 1... Well, but I still do love movies!

Hehe... I think I gotta try to learn to speak up once more... And gain confidence back and things like that... Hm... Like er... People's skills or something. I'm pretty bad at these now... Cannot. Must be more cool! Muahahaha....

Okay, off to do some painting or drawing or reading up on how to sculpt. And yea... certain things is still pretty scary, but just gotta go go go!

Darn... Feeling kinda cold.

Well, I guess I won't delete the other entries. After all, it's what I felt up till now although it's kinda boring. Hmm... even if it does offended people, too bad, all I can say is sorry, this is my blog.

Haven't done anything to the blogskin. Okay, I'm pretty lazy and kinda down to do anything about it. Argh... my legs are feeling kinda numb... Probably lack of exercise...

Nothing much been happening to my life. Then again, it seems like alot have happened. Here I am blogging about I dun really know what as well.

Okay, maybe I should apply for the free GV card. December's almost here. Loads of shopping offers, well it's year-end and Christmas and New Year. Got an email from MOS, looks like a pretty good offer, but it's quite costly still...

And yea... Finally, finished my reel. So far, I did tried to apply a few companies with the older not modified model. No news. Gonna try again. It's sorta like don't really know where else to send. Argh... Maybe should try more overseas one? Well, there are all really hard to get in. Gotta try harder and harder. Yet, sometimes, is hardwork really paying off?

But then again. There really are a lot of admirable people around who never gave up. Saw in the CG SG forum about this armless Japanese artist. Even without an arm, he could paint so so so much better. It sorta keeps me thinking. Argh... I'm just far from that.

December is almost here. Argh... Some thing is bugging me, but I don't know what it is... I don't know why somehow it feels so cold and lonely. It somehow felt like it doesn't really matter if I go overseas and work. I just don't really feel like I belonged anywhere.

Darn... have that feeling I wanna drink again. It just really doesn't feel good at all... I'm just sad... just really sad somehow... Just wanna drunk my sorrows... Argh... this sucks...

Okay, I think I gonna trash all the other posts...

Sorta like, using the same url and trash away the other posts...

Hmm... I'll probably just change....

ARgh... cause it kinda got boring... Had no new ideas... No motivation... Darn... This kinda sucks...

What can I say? Been drinking and drinking...

Life just kinda sucks... Nah, maybe I'm the one that sucks at doing things right...

My phone's camera is spoiled... Argh... Darn...

Why can't I even get drunk... I've been drinking... But why just can't I get drunk?

I'm just kinda weird... It's like, after a few hours I drank, I woke up much much much earlier than usual. Probably, alcohol is like coffee...

Boring... I'm just boring it's not life that's boring...

Do I have to be fake?

It just doesn't feel good... Creature's head here...

Darn... I'm just no where... It's like what am I supposed to do... How? How am I supposed to even get better? Just wanted to learn more, and no money means learning nothing... It doesn't feel good at all when I'm still stuck here... Trying to get out but just can't see the path... It's like still, no company wants me and no school to go to... I'm really trying hard already... Will all these hard work even bring me somewhere?

Guess I'm not gonna receive much of comments here since there ain't alot of people knowing this blog...

Loads of movie I wanna watch!

There's so many movies coming up! And there is 1 movie that I definitely don't wanna miss this year! That'll be Nightmare before Christmas 3D!

Well, took the quick rating thing in facebook for the movies application, flickster (right?) Guess I've missed quite a bit of shows... Haha... And it's like, I wanna watch almost every movie... And well, I guess some of my ratings are pretty bad... Bleh...

Okay, my computer is acting a little weird again... Well, I think I figured out the problem. But I'm not too sure if I adjusted the virtual memory too high will it be dangerous... Hmm...

And a few things are pretty bad. Talking about the way I live currently... Argh... I'm addicted to coffee! Wondered if it's because I can't have alcohol... and coffee is well, cheaper... Bad... My teeth is all yellow... Haha... And, I can't seem to sleep at night... And I can't wake up the morning... Sorta having weird dreams...

Ah... Dreaming... just wanna drown in the dreams... And, it's dreams not nightmares...

My blog's pretty boring with no pictures... I wanna draw... Oh well...

I'm bored at home.... And sometimes I just feel like saying, date me! See? I'm crazy... (-_-)