Rainy day

Nice cool rainy day... It's a really heavy rainy day. And, that makes me really sleepy... Ah... just sorta felt really nice to relax on this kinda days...

But, I don't think I can. Gotta paint paint paint... Well, though I did slept a little more today...

Damn! Last night, yup, I'm a little pissed off by a friend saying all those things. It's sorta like saying i'm useless or what so ever! Duh, what's so bad about doing freelance? What's wrong about spending my time at home to do my reel? Why would I need a part-time when I can survive with the money earn from freelance for the time being? At least, I'm NOT eating off from my parents' money! At the most, I'll have no money to spend. By the time, I'll sure be looking for a temp job to keep me alive.

Well, I guess it's just that he don't understand at all. He's doing video and yea, his works from poly can get him a job. But, me? It's 3D! And, over the whole school during my time, there are only less than 10 people who are interested in 3D. And, the course is a mixed of everything only. Well, of course, hopefully it's better now since there are finally courses specializing in the different areas. Even looking for a job with expected salary $1000 per month won't get u any job at all.

So, I gotta do a reel that is up to the minimum requirements in order to find a job. Without that, it's not really possible. And, doing part-time will take up too much time. I've tried that before, the reason why I quit is because, there is really hardly anytime to do my reel.

Well, just a little pissed. It's my life after all. Well, lots of people won't understand it. Not much of a pay, but it's fun. And, it's really the satisfying feeling that is really worth it. But of course, who wouldn't wish for more pay?

In any case, for now, I'll do my reel and hopefully can get into a good company, if there is overseas opportunity, grab it. And blah blah blah... For now, can't think too much, gotta finish the real basics first, the REEL! hehe...

Okay, off to paint... and, bump maps and displace maps always greyscale. Looking at too much black and white really make me @_@ !!!