Mixed feelings and confusion

Okay, so I just got a temporary teaching job in a Secondary School for 14 weeks. Well, at least I do get a little income. And, I have to wake up really early tomorrow morning. Hope everything goes well.

I'm spending really alot these days, the money I earned from FHI events are all spent before they even come into my account! Yikes!

Haven't even been doing my reels lately... Not really in the mood to do so... Then again, I'm kinda confused, not really sure whether to finish up a car model first or the character model. And the character model, haven't really decide how things should go, like what her clothes should be like, accessories, weapons, etc.

Then there are so many job openings now. I wanna try them all, but I only have my old reel, wanna do more first, but the opportunity may just slipped away... Well, I guess I should just heck care and just send first...

Well, luckily, the teaching job for the school is only on Mon to Thur and in the morning, so, I have plenty of time to do my reel. Well, just that the problem will lies within me. Which is how discipline can I be. Just have to force myself to sit down in front of the computer and do for a while everyday.

Yikes... Haven't really been sleeping well or eating well the past few days... Argh... have this uncomfortable feeling in my stomach... Don't really dare to eat alot. Kept feeling tired and weak. AHHH!!!!

Felt like cutting my hair again. Then on second thought, I wanna save up money. Cut it myself? Hmm... Thinking about it, but afraid that it might look bad and then I have to go seek for professional help in the end, so guess not. I'll just leave it to grow like grass, but the ends of my hair are splitting... Hmm... should I just spend the money? Argh... and then, I have to go buy contact lens as well... And I'm just gonna get the more comfortable ones which are more expensive...

Well, bought so many dresses but didn't even wear them... Yikes... Okay okay, so I'll just be plain in the end. Too lazy to do fancy stuff...

This is so irritating! My mind kept repeating: "Ctrl+s, Ctrl+s, Ctrl+s, Ctrl+s, Ctrl+s, Ctrl+s, Ctrl+s..." Everytime I think of Maya, my mind will just do that. That reminds me, I gotta go get 3D Max's serial number for the educational license. Yikes...

Argh!!!!!

I'm just kinda distracted lately. I guess certain things are better off forgotten. Since I'm probably the only one that remembers, it's best to be forgotten. Focus focus focus! Just focus on my work! Argh! Fight on! No matter how hard or painful it is, just have to Fight on! Grr!!!!