I'm so drowning myself!

I guess it have been more than 10 years... Yeah... ever since I was a kid, I have always wanted to work in the game industry... Waited for those 4 years of secondary school to past, it's the 4 years that I just can't wait to leave the school... Even after so many years, still, my drawing just sucks... Or rather, it's just stuck...

And yeah... I guess it's the game, Final Fantasy 7, that made me really wanted to walk this path. As I move on, it just seems clearer where I wanted to go. But now, I guess I feel so lost... Maybe, it's been so long that it just became what I lived for...

No words to explain... Don't think it's necessary to explain... Whatever picture is drawn in my mind, it's hard to draw them out sometimes... Sometimes the picture becomes clear, but sometimes, it just doesn't seem right...

I bring the rain. Somehow, yea... I love the rain... It's just comfortable in a way...

Okay, so now, I just wanna drown myself with Animes and Dvds! Well, no income, so all the money in the bank is not going to increase anyway...

I dun wanna care that much I guess. I think I'll just do what I want to do... Even if others think that I'm useless without a job, not filial or what so ever... Even if it means that I'll go bankrupt by the end of this year...

I guess I just hated interviews... I just dun know how to answer questions that I just dun think about.

I'm just really into those old animes. I think I really kinda wanna look for 'Beserk'. Hehe, I pretty much like the drawing style, okay, I only saw 1 thumbnail picture of that anime. Wanna watch 'Last Exile' as well. Argh... I really wan the whole set of 'Witchblade', the anime and the whole set of the comic. Then I'll wan 'Darkness' comic, kinda wanna have the game too... I wonder why, but it seems like alot of good stuff like music and animations series seems to start around 1996, 1998...

Oh well... Life still goes on... That is not really a good thing sometimes...