Hopes...

I've just changed my blog here... Haven't been writing for a very very long time.

Gonna change the skin, and hopefully, this blog will be a much happier place. Will be posting some artworks I guess. Won't be posting much I guess.

Not really happy these days. Really wanna be a CG artist. I'm just really trying, but I guess it's not hard enough. It's so hard to explain what it's really like to others. Change and work as something else? No... If I do that, I'll never ever be happy again. I just have to try again and again. I really hope to make it. It's not about pay, it's really about being happy or not, having fun or not, enjoying work or not.

Argh... I really am lost... don't know what to do. To many others, I'm probably just a useless person. Yea, no point nagging about it. I'm really trying hard, but why? why do people always curse me and pray for me fail each and everytime just to make themselves happy, more superior. Making others sad, just to make themselves happy... Can't people just support and cheer? When these people exist, it feels worst than loneliness. But, luckily, I have good friends that supports and encourages me.

I am still learning and I have never thought that I was good in anything before. Just don't understand why some people will think of me as arrogant. I don't even have confidence. Well, at least, I do wish that I will have some confidence, it's seems to be empty. I wanna be happy. I really wanna be happy. I'll try and try and try...


A drop of tears fell suddenly... why?